A Profound Moment…

Outcasts, fans, and any others who may be reading this…I’d just like to take a moment and try to come to terms with what happened to me today.

It’s ok, it’s nothing bad.  In fact, I think this is probably the single greatest thing that’s ever happened to me since I started writing/podcasting.  I mean, I never set out on this journey to be anyone’s hero, and certainly not a role model.  Believe me, the Chris Hvidsten guidebook for a successful life is a one-way ticket straight to stressville, believe me.

The past couple of weeks have been nothing short of Hell for me.  The weather, finances, and the constant exhaustion I’m feeling from the newspaper routes all caught up to me early last week, and I felt myself falling into that pit.  You know the one I mean: The one where you turn into an overly irritable bitch of a person who’s about as friendly as the outgoing Republican regime.  I was certainly not in a good place.

Things are getting better, however.  The weather’s improving, and my mood is on a definite upswing.  Add to that my feedburner stats are climing almost steadily, and I’m getting the feeling that I”m actually doing something right…something good, y’know?

Then, this morning I get this little nugget in my inbox.  This shocked the living hell out of me:

it was the night i had it with the world i was going to leave this earth.
yes i said it but your podcast changed me.
what i didn’t know it but it was dalan.
his push forward attitude did it to me.
i was listening and said to my self wow wow this is art a great story.
i decide to give my self another chance yes you saved my life and thank you very much.
i was feed up with all this furry sex shit. but you have a different story now i am hook and i got a job too. wow my life went 360.
i have to tell you my dad was head to war to he going back to iraq i was so depressed i gave up. but you guy dalan his never quitting attitude lifted me up.

thank you
my hero

my little true story of what you podcast did for me.

by life saver

form: bluehusky20

I’d love to actually quote this one in my next episode, but I’m not sure I can without getting overly emotional.  I mean…wow…just…wow.

I twittered a bit about this whole thing not long after I read it, and this comment came from one of my heroes, Tee Morris:

you have done what writers everywhere want to do. well done! 🙂

It’s really hard to describe how I feel about this.  Of course I’m grateful that this guy didn’t off himself, but to think I had something to do with such a monumentous decision…it’s just overwhelming.

I think I’m gonna trip off this feeling for a day or so to let it sink in, then I’m gonna hit the word processor like a man possessed.

Until next time…

Chris Hvidsten


  1. I just finished listening to the latest episode, and I have to say I’m so impressed and entrhalled with your story. I’ve never ever been into the ‘furry’ fandom, and don’t believe I’ll be in the forseeable future, but this book is /great/. And to know now that it helped change someone’s life so drastically- great job!!
    Keep up the amazing work,
    a loyal outcast always –
    p.s. include more female characters! (please)

  2. Great book! I’m up to episode 5 through podiobooks.com. episode 5 is a little messed up. Sounds like a sample rate problem? Anyway hops skips & jumps. Unlistenable. Would’ve posted this to podiobooks but commentary for your book not enabled for some reason. Episodes 6 & 7 don’t seem to be effected. Thanks for your good work.

    • Hi Barry.

      I’ve actually contacted Podiobooks about the issue, and they’ve assured me they’re working on re-building that episode. It should be ready soon (I hope)

      However, if you’d like, you can download the episode directly from this site:

      This feed’s separate from podiobooks, so Ep 5 there should be ok.

      Thanks again for your kind comments 🙂

  3. Chris, i have to say i am amazed at this story. i found it on podiobooks and am so glad that i did. this is one of the best stories i have listened to in a long time. I mostly listen to short stories, the kind the fit into a single mp3 file. i am very glad i took the time to download your story. amazing to say the least. I can definitively say that i am hooked and can be considered an Outcast. However, i need to know is there more after chapter 13? after listening to it, i get the feeling that there is so much more to be told.

    other than that i wanted to say thank you for the entertainment and for bringing this story to life.

  4. I also wanted to add that if you or any of the other outcasts are interested here is a link to another podcast novel’s website that i adore. the story is called Shadowmagic. it is also on podiobooks. It is written by John Lenahan who is a fantastic author and a great person. so here is the link


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